hi, it's tammy, i guess i feel the need to check in more. i've been struggling with the fear of gaining weight. wanting to restrict...i've skipped a meal here or there but i haven't totally restricted because i know it's not healthy. i've been feeling so lonely and alone like no one can possibly understand what i'm going thru but i know people here can. i feel even more alone and lonely because my relationships with my family are not good at all. i'm working at therapy to give up those relationships because they are toxic. i've been feeling so inadequate and everything. not capable, depressed, etc. i'm tired of the scale determining whether i eat or not eat...the numbers on the scale...i've called my nutrionist but she hasn't called me back so i don't know exactly what is going on with that. just really hurting inside of me so much and i need treatment but don't have insurance and no one to pay for it. i feel so sad right now and wish i had someone there to just hold me...anyways, sorry for rambling...thanks for listening and reading this...
I hope you can get in touch with your nutritionist soon. Maybe your therapist knows of some inexpensive treatment options too.
Just remember that you are MORE than adequate--you can totally recover and you are worth it! You're not alone. Just do the best you can & take it day by day. I know those are easier said than done, but you've already come so far. You can do this--stay strong!