Is anyone else out there in the same place as me? What started as just being restrictive has turned into exercise to get rid of intake. I am in counselling but the ED is a byproduct of the initial problem I think. I walk to and from work, do kickboxing and fencing and even try to avoid meals. I am not a teenager and feel slightly ashamed that I find myself in this position. It is a scary place to be, how rapidly things overcome you take control. Do I want to get better, I am not sure really, I am supposed to see the dietitian next week for the first time and I am not sure what it will bring to me. I am now feeling tired all the time and have had a headache for a week but all I think about is burning off the excess. It interferes with work, can't concentrate properly.
Anyone else in the same situation
Hi there--I'm not in the same situation currently (I've been in recovery for a few years), but I do know what it's like to be constantly preoccupied with thoughts of exercising.
Try talking to your counselor/dietician about it as well. Your dietician can probably tell you how much you can healthily exercise with your calorie intake so that you are still getting energy out of your food. You're burning off all the energy that food provides, which leaves you tired. Exercise is good, but when it becomes compulsive, you can overdo it and hurt your muscles.
You can also try some relaxation techniques (your counselor probably knows some!) that will help you not feel so stressed and distracted without exercise.
Hope this helped a little bit